There
are many schools and career options that I have looked into or wanted
to look into at one point or another during my life. I have
looked into accredited, non-accredited, public, private, large,
small, expensive, and less expensive schools alike. I have
wanted to be, or thought I wanted to be just about everything under
the sun, including but not limited to: Veterinarian, nurse, tattoo
artist, P.I., crime scene investigator, shop owner, author, musician,
actress, model, fashion designer, web designer, video game designer,
mechanic, restaurant owner, therapist, teacher, record label/record
shop owner, and even many combinations of the above.
I
have checked out several colleges but have not actually earned a
single degree in anything as of yet. I have looked into Salt
Lake Community College, Broadview Entertainment Arts University, The
Art Institute, Snow College, ITT Technical Institute, and a few
others. I have heard both good and bad about all of the schools
that I have looked into (and just about all the ones I haven't looked
into as well). Of course there are going to be both good and
bad reviews of any school or career field (or restaurant or anything
else) out there!
One
thing you need to be aware of is the fact that some places actually
pay people to give them good reviews and sometimes they even pay
people to give bad reviews of rival companies. It's just a
simple, shitty fact of life. Er, um, I mean marketing
technique!
Anyhow...
My point is that part of the reason that I haven't actually ever
seriously pursued a long-term career in anything or attempted to
complete school and get a degree in anything yet is because I am left
with the not-so-simple, tedious task of deciphering what of
everything is just complete, utter bullshit, and what of it is good,
factual, honest, accurate information. I'm left with the task
of sorting all that junk out and making a decision or decisions on my
own accordingly.
Learn
to think for yourself. Don't listen to everything you read and
are told by other people, because a lot of it is biased or completely
wrong. Even if it is to some degree actually true, it may only
be true (or slightly true) for one person or a few people, because
it's all speculation and opinion. Not everything applies to
everyone, and everything ("fact" or not) was based off of
someone's perspective or speculation.
At
the end of the day, everything is opinion and nothing matters except
what you know to be true in your heart (but what is true to and for
you may only be true to and for you and no one else)!
The
other thing getting in my way of completing school is the fact that
unlike the government, I don't like to gamble away invisible money in
mass quantities that I don't actually have.
There
have been many times when I had my whole life figured out and had
everything I wanted to do with my life completely, 100% planned
out... Or at least thought I did! But, you know what... I was
wrong! I was wrong every single time! Otherwise, I
wouldn't have changed my mind so Goddamn many times. You may
think you have your whole life ahead of you planned out and may not
actually be right on this and that's OK! Or you may actually be
correct. In which case, good for you! That is awesome.
But, life occasionally throws curve balls at people that can be
temporarily disabling and devastating, and sometimes it even bops
them on the nose, wags it's finger at them and gives them a stern
"No!" Sometimes it seems this is for no damned reason
at all. Just because it seems there isn't a reason, that
doesn't mean there actually isn't! Well, this is another thing
that depends on perspective, opinion, attitude. Rather you want
something/think you want something, don't want/think you don't want
something, need/think you need/don't need/think you don't need
something, deserve/think you deserve, don't deserve/think you don't
deserve something, can have/can't have or think you can or can't have
something, although many of these things do rely on circumstance,
they don't rely on that alone. They also rely on perspective.
You
may disagree with me that it is OK that I keep changing my mind on
what I want to do with my life and that I don't have everything quite
figured out or planned out. In which case your perspective or
opinion differs from mine, because I think it is OK.
Regardless
on rather or not your opinion on if it's OK or not differs from mine,
the fact of the matter is I don't have all my shit together, I don't
know everything, I don't have everything planned out, I don't know
what I want to do with my life, and I don't know what I want to be
when I grow up (or IF I "grow up"), and I think it's OK.
And, this so-called "fact" is only a fact because I
said it was. It's based off my opinion and perspective, so it's
a "fact" inside my head (and in your head, things may be a
little different), but if you were to tell me "No, Bridgette.
Actually you do have all your shit together and you do know
precisely what you want to be when you grow up. In fact, you
are living it right now and you already are grown up," I'd
probably tell you you're full of crap... But, to you, the information
you just fed me is your perspective, your opinion, and to you me
having my shit together is the fact.
Where
was I going with this? I don't even remember now. In my
opinion, the fact is that I've lost my train of thought, forgot what
I actually wanted to say, and this note is kind of irrelevant and
pointless. But, to you the fact of the matter may be that I've
actually said precisely what I meant to say and what needed to be
said and have made many good points throughout this note.
